Tuesday, October 26, 2010

My Memories...


When I woke up this morning, I was really scared for I somehow lost my memory of my life after my dream... I can't remember partial memories of my life and I feel helpless to be cracking my head for the memories to come back...
In my dream...
I dreamt that I live in year 2004 and I had a cat call Momo...I was reading my diary dated in 2004 whereby there are some events happening in my life that I never have had before and some events should not happen in that time of the year... I keep having the feeling that it was not right but the reality just could not come back to me and I begin to feel helpless that I start to have some blurry vision of my memories rolling in my head that I just could not get it right...
In my reality...
I woke up from my dream and I had a short lost of memory that I begin to crack my head to find those blurry visions back...
"What year am I in now?"
"Is Momo still here?"
"How many cats do I still have?"
"Does these events really take part in year 2004?"
"What should I be doing now?"
"What have I missed?"
...
The feeling of losing my memories is really scary and it feels that there is something missing in my life that I should have or could have remembered and I must remembered...It's like a damage film rolling in my mind that it seems so clear yet there are missing parts that I should have or could have remembered...
I blanked out for around half an hour before I regained my memory...

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Random Rants

Since August, our classes have began to get busy with things but my everyday is filled with laughter and surprises n_n Well, I don't usually rant on my blog but I really feel that something in me that is going to explode if I don't say it out...

Now it's the beginning of Week 8 which makes me a little worried with my studies though this semester, I'm taking 3 subjects but one of them makes me worried the most is one of my business for I don't actually understand much what I'm learning and every lecture, I would say, I almost fell asleep for the lecture class is simply dull and I failed my quiz which I'll have higher probability of failing the subject...I don't have much of a motivation to go on with this subject though I'm pushing myself to work it =_=

Well, at least on the bright side, I've got a bunch of friends or you could say "family" to support each other when either one of us is at low mood ^___^

My head is currently filled with those 2 cat dolls but yea, they don't come cheap either so probably buying them around end of this year so just hope that they could wait for me hahaha...

Havta get ready for my group member meetups and today's tutorial and pray that everything works smoothly...


Love Fishes